When I was younger – a single mom, raising two children, on my own…having been raised to not ask for things….and being faced with situations that seemed beyond my control….
Something as simple as having enough money to put food on the table…
or to buy a Christmas tree…..could be overwhelming at times….
I have a vivid memory of being in a grocery store, shopping for what I called the basics: bread, milk, cheese, eggs, butter ( in those days it was Blue Bonnet). With those items I could make grilled cheese sandwiches, omelettes, french toast, etc.
On this particular day, and as it happened many times thereafter, so as not to be a coincidence, without being purposefully conscious of what I could afford, my total came to $22.00. As it turned out, that was exactly what I had to spend.
The interesting part, is that as I was making my selections, it was as though something or someone, was guiding my choices.
And that “someone” has always been with me. ( Some might call it intuition or a guardian angel. )
There were times when I was making broken tile mosaics in my garage, that I would pick up a piece of broken tile and my hand would move to the perfect spot and it would be the exact fit. I have heard of others who have had a similar experience, especially people in the arts.
There is a modern-day woman, named Lorna Byrne, who has been seeing and communicating with angels ever since she was a child.
She lives in Ireland, and says that every person has a guardian angel.
“There are millions of angels out there —but many are unemployed. ”
” Angels walk beside us telling us they are there, but we are not listening; we don’t want to listen.
We believe that we can do everything ourselves…
As you sit there reading this …whether you believe it or not – there is an angel by your side: it is your guardian angel, and it never leaves you.” Lorna Byrne ~ Angels in my Hair. ( pg. 12-13)
This time of year can be very stressful for some.
Last night I went to the big 4 hour sale at my local hobby store to buy a “pencil” Christmas tree, and was so disappointed that they had sold out, that I left without buying anything. And that was 2 stores that I had visited.
I remembered, when my kids were little, waiting until the week before Christmas to go buy a fresh tree. I figured the last week would give me some bargaining power and I could complain that the needles were starting to dry out. It always seemed to work, and I could bring a tree home for us to decorate, while we played Christmas carols and strung popcorn into a garland.
So today, I will set aside my disappointment about not finding the perfect skinny tree that would fit in my condo, and my budget and see what the grand scheme has in store for me.
I will keep and ear tuned to the gentle whisperings of my guardian angel…..
Recent Update: I returned to the store the next day, for one more try, and was going to purchase a small “Charlie Brown tree”. But when I picked it up, I noticed a wave of sadness come over me, ( the same feeling that I had felt the day before, when I was contemplating the same thing). So, I put it down. And when I walked around the corner, something made me look up, and on top of the shelf was a display tree. It was not my skinny pencil tree, but a shorter one, that was a good size. I asked the sales girl if I could buy it, and she got the manager, and they packed it up for me.
It’s not a “real” tree, but I put it on a small accent table, and it now brings more light into my dining room corner.
It makes me happy to have a Christmas tree, as I was saving the peacocks-that-I-found-in-a-thrift-store for two years. I have been wanting to decorate a Christmas tree for that long, and so I have. My friend Molly’s mom had a farm where she raised peacocks, and she gave me some extra peacock feathers a year ago for my crafts. I used selective ornaments that I already had in my Christmas stuff.
And who cares if your tree is fake or real. It looks real to me, and it doesn’t matter anymore. It used to matter, but that’s another story…
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